Life own controller

We should allways church what we have in our hands

sometimes we know the value of the item once we loose it.

Deep Down , Where Time Freeze . in the Grave of memories , where the sun Fears to approach where its colder than the ice , where the Dark don’t fear the light !!

I am a prisoner of my own , I can’t feel my heart beats anymore , I am looking around me but I can’t see anything , maybe I am blind or its too dark for me .

I am Trying to Remember a Face , a Smile , a Laugh , I am trying to Remember who am I , why I am here , but nothing than shades of memories

Living like a Shadow , I cant even feel my breath on my hands , I am feeling too cold , but I am Burning from inside , this mixture of feelings , in the prison of My own

The ideas in my mind , so desperate I am . when I think about all the time I’ve been here , it seems like ages even its just like an Hour ago . on my yellow cheeks so fade , with tears on like a river  . I am Forgetting and I am leaving because I can’t take it any more , I try to sleep for the eternal but its wake me up every time I try  . I try to pass out to the other side but it keeps holding me back , I cant go up , I cant go down , Leave me !!! Let me go !! but I am here I still here !! its this voice inside me , not my voice , but her voice !!

It keep Telling words that I cant understand , sometimes I feel like she is next to me ,

But I cant understand why she left me ,  even that we promise to be together till we become dust !! I don’t know what to say , or what to write anymore , it feels like words can’t be enough sometimes feelings are stronger than words , and sometimes words Disappear

Forgotten by the time , Forgotten  by every one , I am waiting for my hour to come , when I thought that the end Approaches . a glimpse of light , start shining !! is it death , is it me going up ? , it was a person I thought he went forever , a person that I’ve forgotten , her hand takes mine and squeeze it so hardly and pull me up , its an angel !! no its not !! its my beloved person saying : did you ever thought that I will be leaving you ?!! after hearing those words

I felt my heart beating hardly !! like its going to explode !!

And Yes it was a Dream , and What a Dream !! looking around me like a fool I see my Angel Sleeping next to me  , I took a breath like I was catching it for ages !! and i felt such a relief  , I am not Scared of Death , I am Not Scared to Be Forgotten , its just I can’t imagine my life without you !! 

Writing all that , just to say , life can be So hard , and we can be thru Horrible things

But with a Good person next to us  , nothing could be harder than loosing it

If you have that person do never loose it , if you don’t , no Worries you will Find it